I often worry that I have not been a good Mum.

I wonder if they could have a better life if only I had pushed them more when at school.

I know I managed the best I could on my own with two boys.

People are quick to criticize but in truth they have no idea what its like.

Even I would not admit how hard it was at times to be away from family and friends and have no help

We have been through a lot together and at times we have hated the sight of each other.

They are now becoming independent young men and I realize leaving them at weekends has been good for them.

They work out how to do things even when “Mum” is not here to ferry them around.

As a result we have a happy friendly relationship.

Nothing prepared me though for the Lovely Mothers day gifts they had for me on my return from walking The Cumbria way.

I expected Money for new walking socks but I also had a huge card… an ornamental pot of flowers with the message “if mums were flowers I’d pick you”…..  and a DVD film called PS I love you. 

When asked why they choose that film I was told because its a book your reading 🙂

So maybe I am not such a bad Mum after all  🙂